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stripperjingles' InsaneJournal:
| Wednesday, December 7th, 2011 | |
| 2:09 pm | This is Mad Child's Life N I'm fuckin' it up Tens Twenties fourties Eightties.... poppin more pills than the real slim shady Cash, love, parties, life Traded alla that for some shit in a pipe oxies meth perkacettes weed my friends n family say enuff is enuff! Known for bein' late and hittin bro's, not wakin up to pay the bills - its fuckin difficult I sit there and ask why is life so hard, people look at me like "WHO THE FUCK IS THIS RETARD??" :S all i do is watch movies, stoned alone on the couch.... cigarette burns on my couch in my soul... doin the head knod, but not to the beats, it's 'cuz i'm fallin' asleep! Drag my ass to rehab, i love god but i shoulda bought knee pads... Hi I'm Names Liane, my name is Quit Drugs.... poppin' pills like candy Enuff is Enuff, This is my Life and I'm fuckin it up..... How did this get outta control?? I need controla my life.... back Traded alla that for little pills in a bottle... some shit in a pipe.... I needa get controlla my life..... back. Current Mood:  crazy |
| Saturday, August 6th, 2011 | |
| 4:16 pm | lately i been thinkin about a lot of shit..and..its burning me my whole life i been treated like shit so now thats all i know and its left me hateful, lonely, and cold |
| Thursday, May 26th, 2011 | |
| 8:38 am | Its been a long time. James is in jail right now (not any matters related to me) and i am just here with my life on hold waiting for him to get back. I've been hanging out with Roger, he reminds me of martin sometimes... I have to go to work at 12 and do dishes ah fuck. Thats good though, considering I have a 600 dollar phone bill. I know James wants to marry me and have kids and the whole sha-bang, but sometimes i wonder (as weird people often do) if that is what i even want. Maybe I want to get a shit load of tattoos and join a gang, maybe I wanna be a drug addict bum, maybe I wanna live on an island by myself, maybe I cant have kids. Anyways.... better go |
| Saturday, February 26th, 2011 | |
| 8:56 am | salvia chroncicles The other day i smoked a bowl of salvia. (20X) i was actually not expecting anything to really happen.... especially because i am not a light weight, i have had yet to find something that really fucked me up. I decided to record it with my web cam ( Fucking Halarious) Thank god i did. What i saw was nuts. I was fucking completely gone out of this world. First of it all, it was like cartoony.... at first i was spinning into this realm or something, then i am not sure, but it was like the world has ended, or, i had finally come to my end, like i had finished rolling and ran out of tape in my life. I thouht it was a joke, who is going to fix me, i cant beleive there is more to life then just what i was living as and what i have been seeing. there is more under neath. but they belong there and we belong here. I fell through a crack, it was really wet and slipperylike a tongue (my dog was licking my face) it was purple green blue pink all those colours, everything was folding together and moving very quickly, i could hear voices talking to me, like little cartoon voices, everything turned into puzzle peices and i had no fucking clue where i was, how id get back, if i could get back. I tried picking up the phone to say bye to my family and let them know where i am so they didnt worry, but the phone started morphing into puzzle pieces into my hand and it was also laughing at me for being scared so i put it down and went back to my room and turned off my computer (i thought it was a virus comming out of my computer screen) Everything was clicking and puzzle pieces everything it was turning half of my body into puzzle peices and it felt really strange i wanted them to let me go back. Finally i was comming back to normal life and layed down for a bit, i spilt my bong water ALL OVER me, and my skin was crawling. I realized this is serious shiat. I looked at my video, no idea what to expect, would i still be here in this world? OR did I REALLY go somewhere else?? I was still there , alright, after my hit, all i said was, oh fuck. oh my fucking god. then i whispered it again. then i fell down off my bed, and started laughing like a maniac on the floor. I smoked a wee little bit, same plane.... Its like objects cease to exist as objects like we know them. Everything becomes small little pieces. Its very scary actually, u think u will never be able to be whole again. But i just let it happen, kn ew it would go away soon. but thats what it is. Everything breaks apart into little tiny atoms, life as we knew it, no longer exists for 5 minutes. |
| Wednesday, November 10th, 2010 | |
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| Friday, October 15th, 2010 | |
| 8:15 pm | oh im such a whore |
| Thursday, July 1st, 2010 | |
| 7:55 am | happy birthday to mee!! |
| Sunday, May 16th, 2010 | |
| 9:45 am | Over the Roofs -Sara Teasdale (American Poet) I said, "I have shut my heart, As one shuts an open door, That Love may starve therein And trouble me no more." But over the roofs there came The wet new wind of May, And a tune blew up from the curb Where the street-pianos play. My room was white with the sun And Love cried out in me, "I'm strong, I will break your heart Unless you set me free." 关不住了！ -胡适 译 我说：“我把心收起， 像人家把门关了， 叫‘爱情’生生的饿死， 也许不再和我为难了。” 但是五月的湿风， 时时从屋顶上吹来； 还有那街心的琴调 一阵阵的飞来。 一屋里都是太阳光， 这时候‘爱情’有点醉了， 他说，“我是关不住的， 我要把你的心打碎了！” (八年二月二十六日译) 看到这个不免使人联想中西文学交流在近一个世纪的时间里实在是走了很长很长的路了！ |
| Saturday, March 27th, 2010 | |
| 10:47 am | Since everything is but an apparition, having nothing to do with good or bad, acceptance or rejection, one may well burst out in laughter. |
| Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010 | |
| 6:35 pm | Come back to me something, I am so full of nothing, and I’m feeling far too heavy to lift my head. Weighed down with the ashes of my smile, who needs anything? I do. I do. Who’s wondering? I’m wandering and plundering Drag me out from under who I am, before I am buried beneath the emptiness of myself. Reflected in the cracked mirror, I can see nothing clearly, everything is such a sick mess. Will I remember how to speak my mind, before these thoughts choke me to death? Laughing at death, laughing back at me, still there’s nothing to find. And nothing is there to find me.. |
| 3:22 pm | might as well go shoot on some people on saints row 2 |
| Wednesday, February 24th, 2010 | |
| 3:52 pm | life is beautiful what are you? |
| Sunday, February 21st, 2010 | |
| 8:57 am | i miss my dog........ |
| Friday, February 19th, 2010 | |
| 1:33 pm | that wasnt love i am findin’ holding back my tears just intensifies my flying fears... all this and more on top of that ringing in my ears |
| Wednesday, February 3rd, 2010 | |
| 8:55 pm | standing in my own shadow without a soul it best to live alone then to not live at all |
| Sunday, January 24th, 2010 | |
| 10:06 am | everytime i see a picture of you... i puke a little |
| Saturday, January 23rd, 2010 | |
| 8:33 pm | sometimes ppl need to be reminded they are special so i sent some ppl poems lol Friendship is a priceless gift That can't be bought or sold, But its value is far greater Than a mountain made of gold. For gold is cold and lifeless, It cannot see nor hear, And in your times of trouble, It is powerless to cheer. It has no ears to listen, No heart to understand. It cannot bring you comfort Or reach out a helping hand. So when you ask God for a gift, Be thankful that he sends, Not diamonds, pearls, or riches, But the love of a real, true friend. |
| Friday, January 22nd, 2010 | |
| 2:22 pm | some people are shit |
| Tuesday, January 19th, 2010 | |
| 3:26 pm | stars fading but i linger on Where is the spring and the summer That once was yours and mine? Where did it go? I just don't know But still my love for you will live forever Hasta Manana 'til we meet again Don't know where, don't know when Darling, our love was much too strong to die We'll find a way to face a new tomorrow Hasta Manana, say we'll meet again I can't do without you Time to forget, send me a letter Say you forgive, the sooner the better Hasta Manana, baby, Hasta Manana, until then Workin tonight... shit ive been eating so much lately, i hope i put on weight... ive already put on like 7 pounds so thats cool, i want to be 125 anyways... ive been feeling kinda shitty lately... |
| Sunday, January 17th, 2010 | |
| 9:08 pm | no matter how fucked up you feel hang in there things will get better |
